Sick Of Dreaming

After receiving a BFN on the pregnancy test, I got the Black Demon on CD35. I scheduled my thyroid test, due in July, soon thereafter. My TSH is up over 9 so I am back on the meds. Here's what I have to say about that:

i went to the dr last week, before the Manling, then me, and now mark have been stricken w/ explosive poo&puke disease, and he told me that my thyroid was back to broken. which is kinda sorta cool bc i am back on the meds, which MAY help alleviate my utter depression and dispair. he said if i don't start to feel significantly better in the next 2-3 weeks, we are going to start talking about anti-depressants. i don't know why, i mean it's not like the meds have kicked in, esp since i puked one day's worth up, but i feel much better already. i think bc there's hope at the end of this dark tunnel. HOWEVER, this also means i'm pretty certain i am not and will not be ovulating until my thyroid has been beaten into submission again. so that's depressing that i have to wait even longer, but gives me a little hope that the thyroid thing might be the only thing wrong with me. we shall see.

i hope you got to listen to the cds (some compilations I made for a friend) by now. i was jamming out to one of them recently. maybe today, as i finally escaped the house of flying puke w/ the Manling and did errands. which was great except i schizzed at every store and then the Manling puked ALL OVER the olive garden. it's been a hella week.

I need to talk about my utter lack of hope prior to this, the Manling's art class, his 2nd birthday (!!!!!), our 5th anniversary (!!!!!), and maybe a few other topics soon.