"Anguish is the following..."

Today one of my friends told me she found out this week that she's pregnant with baby #2. She was using contraceptive gel, so it is a big surprise. She was planning to try for #2 this spring, and is frustrated that she doesn't have these few months of her body back to herself; she was at the tail end of weaning when this happened.

When she told me, I felt like my vision was in a tunnel and I wanted to cry. She knows the whole situation, and I know she wasn't trying to upset me.

I'm still bleeding. Bright red blood, with some major clots. I still don't understand what is happening.

Oh, the irony.